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| Lots of cows (WY + everywhere) |
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| Bugsy in the trees! (MT) |
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| Lots of cows (WY + everywhere) |
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| Bugsy in the trees! (MT) |
This is post three of three in a series where I get a few things off my chest. Here are the other two: one, two. I actually drafted this post at the end of May and commented about it on this post of Elisabeth's! Cleaning house over here, which kind of just solidifies my point!
I want to talk about commitment. (We've been together for a long time now, and I think it's time we take it to the next step๐! Just kidding!)
I am an upholder, an enneagram one, an ISTJ and a maximizer. I often get analysis paralysis, and I would rather say no over and over than say yes and not follow through. People who flake, ghost, or are late are a mystery to me, and usually I have very little tolerance for them. There are obviously exceptions, such as one of my good friends, who has been a friend for years, and has a lot of great qualities and she would definitely help me hide a body and would be great at researching and planning how and where to do it. I know that if I am meeting her, I have to bring a book and a patient attitude, and know that there is a 94% chance that she will not be on time. However, she will probably show up with a full takeout dinner that she picked up for us, which is why she was late in the first place. Sigh.
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| Reading and eating |
Why am I talking about this? Well, I often feel guilt when I have committed to something and then I cannot fulfil my own expectations about completing said thing. A great example, and the one that made me start this rant, is blog reading. If I have subscribed to someone's blog, and have committed to reading and commenting, in my brain, I have to do it fully, as in read thoroughly, comment thoughtfully, check back for the response, and be fully invested. I don't skim; I don't just say "great post!" or "well said!" and move on. I always check back to see if they have responded before marking it off of my list. My other issue is that I hate reading things or doing things out of order. I cannot read today's post before I catch up on older ones! Yet some people post every day and I cannot read six other posts before I get to today's post!
I know this is not the writer's problem; this is a me problem. The writer doesn't care (or probably even notice) if I comment out of order, or don't comment on every single post. But I care, and it makes me feel rude or guilty if I am away for a while and I have to mark everything as read. In my mind, I am screaming, "but I did NOT read them!" So they pile up, and I get behind, and then my motivation starts to wane and then I want to hide everything under the bed and tell my Mom that I "cleaned my room!" and go out to the beach for a swim.
This is one of the reasons that I stopped writing or reading blogs for a period of time back in the late twenty-teens. I had a blog roll of multiple dozens of blogs, I felt like I just could not keep up with all of them in a quality that I wanted, plus I didn't feel like I had anything to say, so I quit for a while. I cannot do a half-assed job, so I did no job. All or none. Like I said above, I would rather just not commit, than say yes and not follow through.
This is not just about blogging. I used to get the New Yorker magazine and I started to get behind because I could not read this month's magazine without first catching up on the four month's prior, in order, which of course did not happen, so once again, nothing happened.
I also have this issue with Instagram. I rarely post because I want the posts to be in order and the last thing I posted was about Seville and so now I have to chronologically post about the last three months but I cannot do it all in one day so I need to space them out so that requires planning and....yes, it sounds crazy, but then I just decide to do nothing and another month passes by (*edited to add that I wrote this post almost three months ago and have actually posted three more times since then, but that also proves my point)!
So I want to apologize to you if I have not commented on all of your posts, and to let you know that I AM reading them, but I have decided that I can only dedicate a certain amount of time each day to commenting, as it requires the extra commitment of checking back to see if the person has responded etc. and I need to prioritize exercise and health and the pursuit of knowledge, and not get sucked into the black hole that is the internet, which is so, SO easy to do.
However, I am still here, but I do want to find other ways to stay in touch that don't require sitting in front of a computer! I know I may have your email address but if I don't or if you want to keep in touch, you can email me here with your number, or if you have my number already, feel free to send me a message to say hi! If you have WhatsApp, I am trying to lean more towards that, but I can also still use regular texting! Also if you want to have a chat, I would love that (as I can walk and talk at the same time, thankfully)! Hit me up! ๐(I was looking for a cell phone emoji, and I found this pager! Haha! Blast from the past!)
What is your enneagram number and how does that affect you when doing tasks? Do you mark all as read and move on or do you feel like you have to actually read the item first? When you get busy, what are the first things that you let go of?
Also, the Twenty Questions series is still going strong! Don't forget to fill out --> THE QUESTIONNAIRE!
This is the post I was writing when I realized that I had never posted this post! Sometimes my drafts get out of hand, and also it just confirms the fact that when I get out of routine, I get sloppy! (This will be post two of three in a series where I get a few things off my chest. Once they are all available, they will be here: one, two, three).
Also, I want to apologize, as I accidentally put a jump break in my last post, which then truncates it on the main page of my blog and on the Feedly feed. I did not mention this in my peeves post, but this is another of my peeves! When I am reading in Feedly, I don't want to have to click a link; I want to see the entire post and sometimes if they are truncated, I pass on them. So it should be fixed now! Okay, carrying on.
I am out of the groove again. Let me explain. A couple of weeks ago, I did an eight day hike where I had no service or internet and it was wonderful. I saw some beautiful views, ate lots of ramen noodles, and got to lie in my tent with the stars above my head most nights. Before that, I was in faster travel mode, and I went to four different places in three weeks. What this means is that usually I am in the place for 3-6 days with a day of travel in between each one. This makes it kind of hard to get into a groove, as it involves a lot of packing and unpacking, sitting on buses and looking up what to do and see in each new place, but I did try to run a few times a week, sightsee a few times a week, and hit up some of the historical places.
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| This is where Franz Ferdinand was shot and killed |
However, this faster travel followed by the off the grid hike, along with the prep and the aftermath of the hike, has caused me to get out of the groove that I was starting to get into (you may remember from my last post that I wanted to start running three times a week; in the first three weeks of July, I did just that!). Then I returned from the hike and I have hundreds of unread emails, Feedly posts and things on my to do list to get done. Instead of tackling them head on, I feel no motivation to get started. I want to just mark all as read, but that is not really my personality (upholder here!). I have to touch it and look at it and read it, and then if I read it, I have to comment on it, and then I have to return to see if there is a reply... sigh. In addition, I am now in a new place again and so want to see the sights and try the foods and walk the streets, but sometimes it is hard to find a good mix of relaxing and exploring.
I know this is a first world problem, and some of you have kids and jobs and real problems to juggle and this probably sounds like complaining, but it is not. It is just a comment about the lack of routine in my life at the moment, and a expression of how that can often be a little discombobulating. However, I can happily say that none of this stresses me out. I remember days when I was in my 20s and I was going to school from 7 am to 1 pm and then working from 2 pm to 10 pm and then coming home and having a glass of wine or going out for drinks with coworkers to wash away the problems of the day. I don't do that anymore. My therapy is in wandering, taking photos, sitting in a park and watching people go about their days. My therapy is in researching and learning, in being curious. I find joy in that. However, sometimes I want to do nothing, but I feel guilty about that.
I actually wrote another post that I never published about commitment and guilt. The funny thing is that in this post I talk about my issues with doing things in order, and how I cannot read something from today without first reading the thing from yesterday, or how I cannot post something from today without first posting the thing from yesterday. Actually, now I am trying to decide whether I should post that post first, and wait on this one....but no. I will post that one out of order (the horror!) in a few days and link it here once it's done!
So, without giving away everything that I talked about in the commitment post (coming soon!) I will just say that I am behind on all things, and I am not running three times a week and I need to book some travel but am putting it off. I am out of my groove, and I want to get back into it, but am struggling to get back on the right track. And I will end this post here, with a few questions for you.
Do you get bogged down by "having to" complete tasks in order? Do you feel guilt when you don't want to do something, even when it is a self imposed task (or even a fun task sometimes)? Do you often feel like you need a vacation from your vacation?
Also, the Twenty Questions series is still going strong! Don't forget to fill out --> THE QUESTIONNAIRE!
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| Running in Warsaw |
I still have some more wrap up and list type posts, but I am sure you are all getting bored of those! So today, I will talk a little about where I am and what's happening, since I feel like I have been pretty lax in doing that over the last couple of months.
First of all, can you find me in this photo? I will try to make it big enough that you can try!
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| Mur de Canuts (photo credit: Bugsy) |
In case you are wondering, this is the Mur de Canuts in Lyon, which is a mural depicting the silk workers. The history of this is facinating, and it began in 1466, when King Louis XI set up a national silk working industry in Lyon, consisting mostly of Italian workers, who were known for their silk making skills. However, it gets even better, as in 1834 the workers revolted against their employers, starting one of the first general strikes in an industry anywhere in the world. There was a whole life around this industry for years, and you can still see the remnants of this today, both physically and politically.
But I won't bore you with too much history! Let me give you a quick update on where else I have been besides Lyon!
Coming Home. In December, I went home from Seattle and spent some days seeing friends before heading up to my parent's house for Christmas. Despite me thinking that a week would be plenty of time to be with the family, I felt like it went fast, probably because in between playing games and visiting, I worked on packing, getting some photos scanned, and seeing a friend whose Dad is quite ill.
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| Ornament made by my Mom |
Beginning to Travel Again. On Christmas day, my brother and I drove back to the Bay Area, where I stayed with my friend K for the night. On Boxing Day, we flew out of SFO to Frankfurt Germany! We ended up getting a place in Wiesbaden, which was perfect, as we could easily get into Frankfurt, Mainz or other outlying towns from there. We visited Heidelberg, Koblenz, Wurzburg and Rothenburg and had a lovely time wandering and eating and showing the kids how taking the train is fun!
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| Rothenburg ob der Tauber |
We saw tons of castles, took a train on the Rhine river, and had a great time. The only downside was that it was freezing, literally! The weather was in the 20s while we were there, and it even snowed a little. That did not stop us, it just meant more hot chocolate was needed! I also kicked off my running season on January 1st with an early morning run with L, my friend's 10 year old daughter. She and I were up early every day and usually we would hang out in the warm kitchen, but she was game to take a run on one of the freezing days, so we went and it was great!
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| My early morning running buddy |
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| Marzipan piggy |
Flying Solo. After the girls left, I headed to Strasbourg, France, where I had a great time buying pastries and wandering around. If you have not been here, I highly recommend it! However, once again, it was in the teens and twenties and snowed, so maybe if you go, go in April, May or October! I continued my running game, and am trying to go a few times a week, and I did that, even in the rain! It is nice to be in a place where I can go back and get warm, which was not always the case when cycling. However, I kind of am jealous of the folks with bikes, as there are tons of canals and bike lanes to enjoy! I may need to get a bike at some point.
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| Petit France, Strasbourg |
After Strasbourg I went to Dijon. It is a nice little town that I would also recommend. I started to get in a groove, found a good bakery where I could get my daily baguette, and found a nice running path on the Burgundy canals, where I even did my longest run in a LONG TIME, 11 miles! I love being able to pair running with exploring a new place; it really makes the miles go by so much faster.
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| Dijon + Notre Dame Church |
Lunch Buddies. After Dijon, I went to Lyon. I had a couple of friends meet up with me in Lyon and what did we do? EAT! Lyon is known as the gastronomic capital of France and it currently has five two Michelin starred and twelve one Michelin starred restaurants! The ones we went to were called Bouchons, which are the typcial working class restaurants of the silk workers, and the food was very good! We also did a walking tour, looked at lots of old building, ruins and churches, climbed lots of stairs, found plenty of pastry shops and had a great time wandering around Les Halles (the food market).
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| Oeuf mayonaise |
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| So many treats! |
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| Praline tart |
Now my friends are gone again, and I am on my own. I have been enjoying trying out the local bike share, getting my bearings a little, wandering around the Croix Rousse neighborhood and checking out the views from the top of the hill (my apartment is near the river).
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| Basilica de Notre Dame du Fourviรจre |
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| Roman Theater |
Plans include lots more wandering and a Saturday market (or three). I am also trying to get at least 10,000 steps (about 5 miles) a day, stretching for 10 minutes a la Nicole, doing daily pushups and getting back into my running routine! I am also doing at least 10 minutes a day of language lessons and I may also go to a weekly French conversation meet up if I can get my act together! It is still cold, in the 20s and 30s, but at least it's not raining!
ร bientรดt! Bonne journรฉe!
Have you been to Wiesbaden, Strasboug, Dijon or Lyon? Have you ever been to a Michelin starred restaurant? Do you like marzipan? What daily routines are you doing this year?
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| Mumsy, several years later |
| Lucky we had winters free! |
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| The social introvert strikes again: making friends at the cricket in Adelaide, Australia. |
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| Donner Lake, Marin Headlands, Dolomites, Wind River Range, Tetons, Redwood Park (Oakland) |
| Marshall Beach, Golden Gate Bridge and Marin Headlands |
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| Coming down the hill into Grand Forks, BC |
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| Bob fell and got a booboo |
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| Weiner burger + poutine fries! (GF bun in case you are wondering why it looks so funny) |
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| Good stuff! |
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| Currently here |
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| Bob is raring to go. |